Voyeuristic Thursday: slave allan's reward

You may, as a reward, view up to an hour of adult material of your choosing in the 24 hours following this going live. Note, if you don't see this until it has been live over 24 hours, sorry for your loss the reward will have expired. Also note, what you view will be part of your assignment for next Thursday. So choose a thing you are comfortable disclosing publicly.

Thank you, Mistress, for your reward. I was lucky enough to have read the post before the reward had expired. Being faced with the hard truth that in the near future, when I am once again locked into a contract as Mistress's collared slave. These simple interests are going to be off limits to me. So what do I watch with only one hour that Mistress has granted me? To use a metaphor, I feel as though the virtual collar is on me now. It just doesn't have the virtual lock snapped into place yet. That will come in due time.

Having been given permission to search for adult material. I spent 20 minutes searching Google compiling a library of pictures that I can use in future post for my blog and for Mistress's Q and A. I also like to post pictures on my FL profile. I guess with the ban on adult material, I will have to use something else for pictures once I use up the library. OMG. Mistress it just dawned on me. Will I still be allowed to look into my saved file of images for my blog once I am under contract? I do not have an interest in seeing couples having sex. I prefer teasing pictures. The white feather on one's side or the photo of an ice cube on a defenseless sub's nipple.

Light predicament bondage catches my eye too. The ones where as long as the sub stays on his/her tiptoes. They prevent the endless edging from a vibrator. Or being in the predicament of being tied to a wooden horse. I find myself easily imagining myself as the slave in those pictures. But mostly I enjoy both photos with captions. Or as they are called today, memes. I am particularly fond of femdom, CFNM, and erotic hypnosis caption. I also admire the simple hand-drawn photos. I am astounded how an artist using lines and shading can make a scene jump off the page. Once fully collared these memes will probably be the first violation I will have to confess to. For example, recently I have been searching for memes to send Mistress to help aid her with quitting smoking. But I found myself typing in BDSM Minions. That kind absent mindlessness could find me once again being dressed down on a future Thursday post. Or something worse. So I save several in those first 20 minutes for future use if I am allowed too.

Rationing my remaining time, I decide to listen to one last hypnosis file. I had to forego my favorite file that technically is a JOI theme script. But with my particular male member refusing to make an appearance. I substituted my family jewels to tormenting my nipples. Sadly this file was too long to listen to with my remaining time. So I listened to a 22-minute piece about nipples. In the introduction part the session, the hypnotist claims that with continuous listening my nipples will become the center of my sexual being. It is suggested that I will crave nipple play over any other stimulation. A wonderful thought for someone with E.D. I enjoy listing to the sultry sounding voice and find the piece quite relaxing. As to the claim of making my nipple replace my penis as the central sexual focus on my body is still up for debate.

With only 18 minutes remaining I have two things I want to do. First I want to write a new post on nipple play. Sadly I am having a problem to come up with a theme. Hoping for inspiration I did a Google search. I found one description that sounded promising. It was a 54-minute video clip. Of course, knowing I couldn't watch the full thing so I started leapfrogging through it. Unfortunately, I didn't find any new inspiration for my blog, But the scenes that I did watch were interesting. The clip was not what I call the fluffy production type. This one was rawer. For all, I know it could be a couple who uploaded one of their scenes online. Trying to keep to my interest it was a femdom, CFNM video. In the video I was introduced to a new nipple device that I did not know of. The Mistress called it a nipple stretcher. He being gaged had little to say. These things are about 8 inches long with a metal arch. Through the arch is a threaded rod which is attached to a clover clamp. The slave in the video wore them by have the clamps attached to his nipples, which are stretched by the threaded rod, pulling the device tighter to his chest. Periodically through the video, the Mistress would twist the threaded rod a couple of revolutions pulling the slave's nipples that much more. Oh what a lucky slave.

With only seven minutes remaining, I gave up the video to read a short story I found the internet. This one is a short tale about a newlywed lady who thought she had received a gift from her husband that was away on a business trip. Upon opening the box she discovers a chastity belt. Which is of course equipped with the expected butt plug and vibrator attachments. There is a love note attached saying that if you love me you will wear this for me until I return. And to contact him once she put it on. Excitedly the wife puts the device on and locks it. She then quickly calls and tells her husband that she put it on. But instead of a fun conversation with her lover. She is greeted with an evil laugh from the man that she married. He goes on to tell her that the relationship and marriage were all staged and that she had been selected to becomes a sex slave to this multinational group. She still thinks that he's playing a game until he asked if she read the instructions. She reads a welcoming message to her new life as a slave, followed by a lengthy contract which states that by locking the device she has agreed with the terms of the contract. The story then goes on to tell about her training by what turns out to be a remote control belt at the command of some mystery woman. During the training stage of the story, the slave is taught obedience by receiving multiple hours of edging or forced orgasms by the chastity belt for not complying. The rest of the story is about the different people she's required to submit to.

So that is how I spent the hour that Mistress Cassidy rewarded me with. I am still stuck for an idea to use in a nipple tormenting post for my blog. I am open to suggestions.

Thank you once again, Mistress, for allowing me to be part of your Thursday blog.

Mistress Cassidy's New Contract

Until recently I wasn't especially attracted to formal contracts. Until I wish to offer a sub a collar there is no reason whatsoever to create one for professional sessions. And with subs that transition from clients to collared by the time I am offering them my collar we have already established the ground rules that guide our dynamic. I may jot them down or truthfully I have on a few occasions tasked my sub with writing what they understood the expectations to be and I simply correct any mistakes and sign off on what they have presented me. I do love to write, but overly formal, wordy, micro-managing is just not a hot button for me. I had never been terribly impressed with what I saw in other's contracts either, slave will suck my dick on demand. Well I lack the appendage and I am not a big fan of demands in either direction. I much prefer my personal subbies long for me, and beg for me. Collared subbies that came via the professional route are never, ever going to be allowed to suck my anything and they are well aware of that limit before accepting my collar. I came across a contract that I really appreciated though. I no longer recall where, so unfortunately I can not credit the creator. Other than the first line of the bottoms guidelines, this is not a copy of that contract. What I liked was that the requirements for the sub focused on the well-being of the sub, not how the sub was expected to serve. The responsibilities of the top were more clearly defined in my opinion than those for the bottom. I want a sub who seeks my collar to know exactly how I conduct myself. I want them to know my style, my preferences and to recognize that what I give them is a significant piece of my life and my energy. If this is not what they seek, if they simply want to be told that they will perform on demand, I am not the right dominant for them. 

So this is the blue-print for my new contract. It will be augmented to reflect the specifics of the bottom it is edited for, but I had two bottoms I in mind when I wrote it. With my upcoming move, my intention to essentially live in two states that are separated by 600 miles, I wish to find the best among the submissives that currently serve me informally and to transition them into collared positions. For my plans to go smoothly I will require the devotion and dedication that comes from a committed sub. I will print no more than 9 copies in the next year, and  I may print less. But I suspect 3 subs in Massachusetts, 3 subs in Virginia and 3 virtual subbies is what I will require. I will continue to see newbies, and uncollared subs, but my focus will be on and my attention will be given to those who serve me formally.   

Mistress Cassidy V. Cream recognizes that your skills, attitude and general demeanor is pleasing to her and does wish to extend a formal offer of my collar to you. I wish for you to be my _________, and I will refer to you as__________at community events and in private. As my _________ you will be expected to follow the following rules at all times, to the best of your ability. You will without hesitation disclose any infractions immediately. 

1. Each morning you will state a thing you like about yourself. It should be an original thought each day. At any time I may ask you what your statement was that day, you should be prepared to disclose it.
2. You will check-in once per week via_____ on _____day. At which time you will update me on any projects we are working on, your schedule for the following week and you will share one statement that you used the previous week. 
3. You will disclose to me your fantasies, your hopes, and your goals. Both as they are currently, and ongoing as they change. 
4. You will refrain from self-harm, and negative internal chatter. If this proves to be difficult for you, you will bring it to my attention so we may develop a strategy to address it.  
5. You will disclose your fears, concerns, and limitations. Including but not limited to hard limits, phobias, medical conditions and the state of your emotional well-being. Again this will be both as the are currently and as needed should they change. 
6. You will protect yourself in and out of scenes. You will, to the best of your ability, avoid toxic people, and unsafe situations. 
7. You will use your safe word of ______ in scenes as needed, without fear of repercussion, at any time for any reason. You are trusted and encouraged to know your limits, to know when you are ready to push on them and when to hold firmly to them.  
8. You are my property and I expect you to maintain yourself in a manner that reflects the value I recognize in you. 
9. When I am in _______ you will be available to me ___________. I will use ______ to contact you. You are expected to acknowledge my messages within _______., to carry out any task that I may ask of you or to ask for additional time if needed. 
10. When I am away, in my absence you will be expected to continue with all rules listed, to complete any on-going projects or tasks. And to communicate with me via _______, _________.
11. In an emergency in my absence you are to contact ________ via__________ and to heed her advice as if it were mine. 
12.  At scene events and in private you are to refer to me as _________, In vanilla public settings and around muggles, you may simply call me Cassidy. Your overall demeanor at these times should reflect your respect and affection for me, but I do not expect you to out yourself. 
13. If ever you do not understand the instructions I have given you, you may respectfully ask for "clarity" and expect that I will clarify my instructions without frustration.

As your ___________ you are my property and you will be treated with the utmost respect and care. I place the highest value on my belongings. The following are my promises and responsibilities to you. 

1. I will guide you through your experiences in submission with love and affection. 
2. I will not withhold affection or attention as a form of punishment.
3. I will never strike you or otherwise cause you pain out of anger or frustration. I do not hurt people out of malice, I hurt people because I enjoy it. 
4. I will be available to you for after care in whatever form best matches your needs immediately after all scenes and as needed in the days that follow. 
5. I will include you in community events that I deem appropriate for you. I will give you clear expectations for any event we attend.
6. I will reply to your messages within 24 hours, in the event of an emergency and an emergency only you may contact me via _________. An emergency is to be understood to mean that you are in immediate risk of harm or have sustained an injury of significance. 
7. Should I come to be disappointed in your behavior it will be addressed quickly, kindly, using precise language, examples of the behavior and with clear instructions with how I expect it to be remedied. I do not expect my submissives to be mind readers and I would never intentionally set you up to fail.
8.  When I feel our dynamic has reached it's natural end or should you seek to be released from my ownership, I will release you with kindness, grace and gratitude. I will maintain your privacy and my respect for you until the end of time. 

What Makes a Good Submissive?

Have my mute readers missed me? I have said this before, I love keeping this blog. I also love having a life worthy of recording in ink (or virtual ink as it is). Someday I will find a balance, it is unlikely that will be this summer.

So many things have changed recently, and so many more changes are on the horizon. I love change. I love new experiences. I love adventure. But honestly Mistress is ready for some things to just settle down already.

It is 8:45 pm on a Thursday. Today I had two great sessions here at Safe Haven. The dungeon is cleaned and ready for tomorrow's party. Mistress has had her fill of fried clams. I am in my tank top and panties (little visual for you, you're welcome) pretending that I paid for this heat and that I am sitting in a glorious sauna catching up my blogging, ad writing, and writing my new goal list, which includes a clearly defined business plan. There are several entries in my mind that must be put into orderly sentences and paragraphs. Some have been occupying head space for the better part of a month and some are fresh. This may turn into a long night for me, but I am up for the challenge.

What makes a good submissive? Months ago I shared that both of my collared subs asked to be released. And yet slave allan  has volunteered to continue to be of service to me, with no expectations of favors or even my attention in return. The term natural submissive has been tossed around in a couple of conversations I have had recently. I concur that there are people who tend to be more submissive than others, in my opinion that doesn't make them better at it. I have always dated artists, singers, guitar players etc; people naturally inclined to be musical, and/or artistic. Those who have continued to follow their passions have become better at them, those who have not- well I don't know, because they don't do it anymore. Being a natural at a thing perhaps gives you an edge, devoting the time to your craft makes you a master of it. Veered of track a little bit there, stay with me. Slave allan may very well be a natural submissive. But that does not mean that my other sub was not a good submissive. 

What, in my opinion, makes a good submissive? That is the question I have been tossing around for weeks. I think I have sessioned with around 500 submissives. Although I have been in the scene for 20 years, there were years I focused only on regular clients and years I saw many new-to-me subs. Five hundred is my best guess. I have been blessed in that I have only ever had one client I would refuse to see again were he to call me. I am confident that he will not. But of course I can not instantly bring to mind all of the people I have met. As I pondered this question certain clients came to mind. At first it was the obvious ones, clients that have become friends, formerly collared or on-going submissives. After awhile though other subs, even ones I only saw once ages ago, started to come to mind. At first glance they don't have much in common. Their interests are all over the spectrum, my memory of their interest may not even be accurate after all this time. They are not necessarily the ones I found attractive. Some were newbies and some were more experienced than I. Here is what I remembered time after time, these are the things they had in common. These are the traits I thought of when I was finally able to articulate what it means to me when I say someone is a good submissive.

• The ability to articulate their intersts. Their list didn't have to match mine completely, we may have only had one interest in common, but they were able to name that interest. One of the most frustrating things for me when I am screening potential clients is when they say, “Whatever pleases you Mistress”. It frustrates me because I do understand that they do wish to please me and they have somehow been lead to believe the way to do that is to just agree to anything. I have many interests. I love all of them. It is a waste of my time to create a scene that is simply what I want if it doesn't meet my sub's needs. Know what I want? I want to hand your credit cards off to my assistant, because I hate to shop myself. I want to lock you in my kennel. Then I want to reread some of my favorite books until your time is up and your card is maxed out. Is that what you were hoping for? Actually I would hate that, and if that's what you are looking for find a findomme, and tell her you wish to be a paypig, those are the terms for that. I want magic. I want to be exhilarated or exhausted at the end of our session. I want tears, sweat, blood if that's within your comfort zone. A good submissive can say what their hopes are for their time with me. . 
• Honesty about their experience level. When a person tells me that they are very into xyz, I assume they have experienced xyz. Depending on the precise words they use I might even assume they have extensive experience with it. It happens sometimes though that what a person actually means is that they are attracted to xyz, they have thought about it, sought out images of it, but in the real world they have never experienced it. That's kind of a really important distinction. I have come to learn that as the person accepting responsibility for a scene, I need to ask questions and be certain I understand what has been said to me. But a good sub volunteers that information.    
• A good submissive pays attention. It thrills me when I see a returning client and during the how have you been stage of our time together they are able to say, Mistress how is quitting smoking going? Or any other thing that was discussed in our last session. Was my vacation relaxing? Is my garden coming along? They may not remember my birthday. They may not remember that my favorite flowers are orange roses. But remember that I was fighting off a cold the last time you saw me and ask me how I am feeling now. You know because I am not a fantasy fulfillment dispenser, I am person with feelings and people feel good when you follow-up.
• A good submissive is thoughtful. I receive gifts from my subs all the time. It would be inappropriate of me to start rattling off the dollar value of some of these gifts. I have been blessed with many generous subs in my career. It isn't the value of the gifts though, it is the sincere thoughtfulness behind them. I fell in love with the work of a submissive artist in the UK. a person I have never met in real life. He gave me access to his work and his blanket consent to use them as I saw fit. Once I had to put away a tool I intended to use when I realized it had suffered damage and was no longer safe to play with, the submissive I was in a scene with sent me a replacement within a couple days. I have a subbie who brings me the most delicious chocolate covered cherries. Thoughtfulness can be inexpensive, it can even be free. Truly, it is the thought that counts and it warms my icy heart when the thought was of me.
• A good submissive shares themselves with me. I do not mean a good submissive offers up their body to me. I mean a good submissive opens up their soul to me, or at least shares with me where they are at at this time. In part I need to know where my sub's head is, but also I want to know where my sub's head is. I want to know is this stress relief time, or is it the capstone of a perfect day. We are going to engage in some intense play. (That is another thought I have pinned for an entry, it is ALL intense play.)  It is my hope that our scene leaves my sub feeling wonderful. It might not though. If it doesn't, I am going to do my best to walk them through whatever feeling it gives them. 

Another top may have a completely different take on what makes a good submissive, and that is their prerogative. 

I am a Dominatrix

A couple weeks ago, on Mother's Day specifically if you're curious, I found myself chanting, "I work in the adult industry not a daycare, why am I being forced to deal with so much juvenile bullshit.". I wish I could say that all things quieted down from there. I can't, they didn't. What I can say is that my top, as always, had some insightful words and encouragement. 
So doesn't that make you a submissive, or maybe a switch Mistress Cassidy? If you enjoy being flogged, if you look to another dominant for guidance, if you knelt with your head on the floor.., um, what? The temp just went up a little in the room and I lost my train of thought.
Where was I?
Mistress Cassidy, Cassidy Cream and even vanilla, you saw me slip my legal name just recently didn't you? I'm not going to again, but yes even that woman, are tops, alphas, type As, dommes, dominants etc. I am all of those women and I am a dominatrix.  Let me tell you how I know this.
I love to wear corsets. They make me feel sleek, they remind me to stand straight and to own the space I am inhabiting. I feel strong and impenetrable in a corset. A corset is fashion. Enjoying corsets does not make one a top. Right now I am sitting here in leggings, a beater and yesterday's make-up, and I am still a top.
I make magic when I swing a flogger. I can make it dance an eighth of inch from your skin, just enough to stir the air around you and swirl the little hairs on your arm. And I can bring it down like thunder, causing plasma leaking welts to burst forth from you. I can do this while coquettishly swiveling my hips, sometimes with my eyes closed, in time with Take Me to Church or anything the DJ might be spinning. When I am finished you will drop to your knees if I ask you to and you will recognize me for the Goddess I am. Swinging a flogger is a learned skill. I am not a Type A because I  can swing a flogger. Anyone with the tools and patience can learn to do the same. Today I am catching up the electronic part of my job. I am doing laundry and while there is music playing there isn't much hip swiveling happening. I am still a type A alpha.
I like to be indulged. I like for there to be flowers in every room of my home. I love breakfast in bed, and see nothing wrong with requesting it on a random Tuesday and then again on Wednesday. I might not even say thank you if I am distracted, but that is rare- I tend to have impeccable manners. Being indulged is a side product of having had indulgent partners in my life and of having grown-up an only child. Today I am single. I do all the things myself and if I want breakfast in bed I will need to make it myself, like a muggle. Or I will need to pay for a hotel & room service. Enjoying being indulged is not what makes me a domme. When I make my own breakfast, I am still a domme.
I like to make people uncomfortable. There is a whole spectrum here. I like innocent discomfort like when I am speaking to someone and I can see them struggle to maintain eye contact, hear their voice catch a little and know that I am making them think less than wholesome thoughts.And I like more intentional discomfort, I like causing pain.  I like looking directly in a subs eyes, and slowly applying more and more pressure to bits that aren't intended to withstand much pressure at all. I love the moment when without words I see a sub slip from oh please you can't hurt me, to oh please don't make me ask you to stop hurting me to a desperate can't you hear me begging you to stop hurting me. But I only engage in those activities with those that have asked me to. I think everyone I know (or at least almost everyone I know) , including the people who ask me to hurt them, will tell you that I am mostly a kind & gentle person.  I am still a dominant if I break out my hot stones and give you a massage.

At our girl party several weeks ago I tapped my very good friend Mistress Dahlia and asked if she work me over a bit. Things have been stressful, I've mentioned that haven't I? I had new tools I needed to experience, and I had a real need for some hard core stress relief. I suppose I look submissive. She's slapping me between the shoulders with my new rod, it stings quite a bit. For fucksake I am biting the side of my thumb, is there anything more submissive than this? Now for those not as in-tune with my body language, I am absolutely blissed out. I am relaxed. I feel safe. I feel Dahlia pouring her attention into me and I am happy to receive it. I am ever so thankful that Dahlia knows what she is doing and I do not have to coach her through what I want, but there is no submission happening in this photo. Am I sure? Well this photo is a moment later...

I found myself having to yell at some ass across the room for messing with the music. Interrupt my bliss, they're lucky they still have a head at the top of their neck. 

I am still not sure that I have conveyed what I intended to here. 

 The night of our girl party, I was going to have a couple cocktails. I knew I wouldn't be driving. I was with a dozen people I would trust with my life. There was no reason I couldn't let my hair down. Then my Hazey was a little bit sad, about a boy. Mistress skipped the cocktails, and did her best to remind Hazey how valuable she is to me and how much I love her. That is what a top does.

When I go places, I am in the driver's seat. 

When a thing goes bump in the night, I get out of bed. 

When I have feelings that are not conducive to safe play, I either work through those feelings or I do not play. 

If ever someone suggested that I played in a manner that was unsafe, I'd sit down with a pen and my notebook and ask them to tell me precisely what they were talking about. I wouldn't stand up again until I was certain I heard every word that was said to me, even if it was painful. I wouldn't move until I knew I could correct the action they brought to my attention. Until I was certain that they were mistaken or that I now knew how to do this imaginary thing safely, I would never again do this thing to another human.  

This is what I mean when I say that I am a top, a Type A, an alpha, a domme, a dominant, a dominatrix. 

I mean, I am responsible.

In all ways, always.

The truth of the matter is, that is what I love and I wouldn't have it any other way.  

Mistress's Weekend Plans

Here it is Thursday afternoon and I realized that while my weekends are normally swamped with vanilla commitments this weekend is not! This weekend Mistress is going to a private fetish party and has ample time available for swinging my flogger at my studio too!  

While the party is a venue I am unfamiliar with and I am going with just one trusted friend, I am super excited to be having some fetish filled downtime. I have a pleasant hum of nervousness for meeting new people, and I high level of expectation for having a wonderful time. 

And I have time for weekend sessions! So many of my favorite subbies to play with have schedules that make weekends better than weekdays. It is so rare that I can accommodate the weekend requests, but this weekend I can. I wish I had taken a peek at my agenda sooner so I could have better shared my availability. But it's all good, my mute little subbies here will know I'm available once I hit "Publish".  

Let me wave my magic wand a bit and craft the perfect weekend, jump right in where you see you can be of service to me:

Early Friday I would like a pretty, slutty, little sissy in my studio. I need to play closet to decide what to wear and what toys to bring to the party. I'd like a girlfriend to help me decide. I'll put them in my pretty wigs and practice some extreme makeup ideas I'm contemplating for the party.

Saturday, while I won't be hungover, Mistress doesn't drink, I will be out late and perhaps not my most perkiest of selves. I need a good, working, service oriented slave to come serve me. I may very well wind up with a small afterparty at my studio if the new friends I meet are interesting enough. The floors may need to be scrubbed, and Mistress's feet will most definitely need servicing. And if you do a good job being my bitch, maybe I'll secure you to my doorway and lazily flog your bottom. 

Sunday. I need to recheck the forecast, but I think I saw that we'll have more rain on Sunday. Mistress loves rainy days. Sunday, rain or shine, Mistress would be down with a sensory session. Oh OK, Mistress is always down for a sensory session. Did I mention I picked up 3' wide plastic wrap for my playroom and a new blindfold? I have some new naughty ideas I want to try- ideas borrowed from others that I recently realized really spark my interest. Like mummified, blinded, scent identification. I want to tease a little cocooned subbie with my favorite scents, rewarding them for proper identification and lighting their ass on fire if they fail. 

Alright Mistress is going back to jamming to Shikira to get in the mood for tomorrow night.... if you are an established subbie & know my number, you have my permission to call today. If you are new subbie hoping to fit into my weekend you may email cassidycream15@gmail.com And should it come to pass that any of my subbies are going to be at the private party I mentioned, I expect that you will check in today so we can discuss my expectations for socializing outside of the studio. Assume that you can speak to me during my downtime without previous permission will not be met with kindness. I will assume that you are giving your consent to a public display of your worthlessness. 

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Monday: May 8th 2017

It's a week into May, and so far, it's getting a mixed review from me. While it hasn't been utterly dead in the studio, it has been slower than I would like. I have been clicking away at the keyboard. I've made steady and significant progress on several projects, but I haven't completed one yet. The garden is exploding with flowers from all the rain, while the riding ring  is ankle deep mud. Over all I suppose all is well, but there is definitely room for improvement. 

Let's get on with the list. 

• New Toys: It's been a few weeks since I mentioned picking this up, I finally had a chance to try it out. (The picture will be at the bottom. I can't seem to post it here without messing up the formatting.) It's the pink seat bouncy seat with a built in, vibrating, oh I hate to be vulgar but I'm at a loss for a delicate term for it. The pink seat with the big vibrating cock. There just say it and move on. It came from Love Honey, which you will find the link to right over there----> on the sidebar, and if you order through that link I will get a little commission. I forget the exact price, but it was under $40 and my order qualified for free shipping. The shipping was lightning fast, and the packaging was completely discreet. Just another big brown box like my mail carrier is use to dropping on my doorstep every few days. It has to be blown up of course, I don't know if you could affix a bicycle pump to the valve. I know if you are me you can hand it off to a slutty sissy submissive (try saying that 3 times fast), and promise them they can be the first to try it out if they blow it up. I think most ladies would find the toy to be a great size, and the range of vibration to be pretty standard. My slutty sissy submissives though will probably think it looks a bit too small and then find it is actually a bit too big when they try to use it. Covered with latex and plenty of lube, with patience it'll fit.Because it's a seat, and we had it set up on the floor, gravity wanted to challenge patience and have it slide home faster. Setting it up on the edge of a bed may make it easier to use, and I suspect for taller than average subs, it would be much more comfortable on a surface higher than the floor. I'm very happy with the purchase. There are certainly better, oh here we go again with the vulgarity, there are better fucking machines on the market. They sell for significantly more than $40 bucks. This was inexpensive, seems very durable, and it is easy to clean. If one doesn't have a private playroom where one can display big pink cocks on a bouncy chair, inflating and deflating for storing after each use might become a pain in the ass. But in my studio it can sit right in the middle of my toy room. 
• Nails & Toes: They're naked again. I have a professional mani & pedi scheduled later this week. 
• New Projects: I believe I will be unveiling the project I've been fine-tuning this week. The next entry should be the big announcement and I think the next entry will be on Wednesday. Another project that really needs to go on the To Do List, is creating an email sign-up gadget. Then you'd be notified whenever there was a new post or project. 
• Looking Forward To (Scene): I believe I am going to do a double Mistress scene with a very good friend, a talented life style player I've been trying to convince to join me in sessions for years, later in the month. For now it is a one time engagement, but my fingers are crossed that she'll love it and regularly join me in the dungeon. 
• Looking Forward To (Vanilla): Things are relatively quiet in my vanilla life. It's almost, but not quite time to schedule the first camping trip of the season. Almost but not quite time to open the pool for the summer. 

And there it is in all it's vulgar glory.