Where is the Fast-Forward Button?

This post may take the Dear Diary factor to another level. I am OK with this. I am an exhibitionist after all. If it gets too spilly, we have the handy-dandy backspace button. My glass of Diet Pepsi is full, grab yourself something and let's see where this goes.
I was introduced to and fan girl hard over this motivational speaker, dominatrix, self-proclaimed your favorite Goddess-Captain-Auntie, Lady Speech on Instagram. Go follow her.  Watch the one about one shoe'd toddlers living their best life. It is both hysterical and profound. A couple days ago she said a thing about all the planets being in retrograde. I will fail to do her wit justice but she said something to the effect of, If your boss is tripping, if your wife is tripping, your mama, your baby's mama, it's not their fault. All the planets are in retrograde right now. Just drink your water, pray and masturbate, it will pass. 
I did make note of it. Sent a silly message to my top about it. I probably should have had it tattooed on the back of my hand. It is now written in erasable marker on my dryer, slightly edited to be appropriate should Mistress have unexpected company.



Could August hurry up please, I am so over July 2019. Last July was really difficult too. I don't know what I may have done to offend the spirit of Julius Caesar. Oh wait, July & Mr. Caesar is the reason we have this foolish system with 12 months of 30 and 31, sometimes 28 or 29 days instead of a logical lunar based calendar of 28 that all begin with the new moon. I bitch about that all the time. Ha! I bet that's what's crawled up his ghost ass. Well, now that the connection has been identified, fuck ya Caesar, go on make all of my July's challenging if that quickens you, they will all pass just like you.
Last July was difficult, yet daily my Facebook memories reminds me that July was also filled with special memories. July 1st, a special day in it's own right, the universe gifted me a moment that has only happened a half a dozen times in thirty years. It will happen again, but it will become ever more challenging to replicate in the future. My DNA is no more recessive than I, and the wander-lust gene appears in all my descendants.
In the version of this I penned in my head, I itemized all of July's past and present flaws. I now choose not to lament on the moments that challenge me.

See a Magical Moment from July 2019
Let's remember only these moments

I love mantras. My current is a mouth-full. I am the manifestation of my ancestors' dreams and desires, and I am the guardian of my descendents' legacy. It is just a little bit arrogant, I appreciate a little a bit of arrogance. It is a spin on a thing I heard in a Lady Speech video. Thank you.
I love mantras except for the trite ones, the obvious ones, the ones that were coined for muggles. You need to break eggs to make omelets. How deep. Water is wet. They exist and persist though because they resonate with all of us and they are true. Sometimes you do need to break things so better things can exist. Not just better things, the thing it is destined for can not happen without accessing it and to access it it must break.  Look at that trite and profound can exist simultaneously, I so love a contradiction.
At the end of last July I made some bold declarations. Truth be told, I was largely operating from a place of bravado not bravery at the moment I said them. Mistress isn't as easy to read as you may believe. I was told a story recently that included a statement that I was intimidating. You have no idea how shocked I was to learn this. I have had a couple feelings about it since, flattered, confused and now I suppose I am asking myself if that is a quality I should embrace or seek to change. Back to last year for just one more moment. I declared boldly what I wanted, and once I did the universe affirmed I had asked for the right things. I appreciate that, the universe always hooks me up.
We must be making one hell of an omelet right now. I would like micro-greens, those little thread mushrooms (I think they are called enoki)  and uncured, maple enhanced, pasture-raised bacon, please. Aside from my brunch order, I have no idea what is going on my Goal List for August. I am going to head to the Butterfly Park and contemplate my naval until it comes to me.
I suspect you will want to see whatever it is, so watch this space and hold your breath.

Catching Up Part 1

Omigoodness, how amazing was May 2019? I think I am going to make a notation in my calendar so when time travel is a thing I will remember that it was quite possibly the best month ever and I'll want to be extra mindful not to create a paradox. Unless in the paradox universe all that changes is the last season of Game of Thrones.
Instead of my normal Monday where can you find me post, I'm going to time travel in the only fashion available to me at this time, and share all the yummy moments you missed in the past couple weeks.  Oh sorry for you, you should follow my blog, groups & platforms more closely if you want to be in the loop.  Or you should submit more fully if you want to be part of these moments.
A few weeks ago my top said that he was going to be someplace practically on another planet and suggested that I meet him there. Have I mentioned how conflicted and full each of our schedules are? My overly full schedule though, like everything else in my universe (or nearly everything) bends the knee (so angry about GoT). Where was I? Yes sir, on my knees. What? That can't be right. No, my schedule was bending for me. My top said he could carve out some time in his too full schedule and I started banging on my calendar until I thought I could make it work too.
But could I really make it work? I have a lot of specialized responsibilities. I can't just tap any muggle or call up Kelly's Temp Service and say yes, I'll need a dominatrix on Tuesday, who cooks from scratch using only locally sourced produce, to step into my shoes for a few days. But it so happens I know a dominatrix who knows the value of bone broth and free range eggs. Bonus, she loves me. Mistress Dahlia and I began hammering out a visit and at some point it became clear that really we needed another person to make this work. Our favorite Panda stepped up to fill in the rest of what was needed.
Let's pause here for a moment to appreciate this is the rewards of building meaningful, healthy, and complex dynamics. In all things I give my all, having partners and friends that do the same, fills me with so much that it rarely feels like work.
How much of my time with my top am I going to share with you little voyeurs? I haven't quite decided yet. Let's pin it & talk about my party now.

Shortly after settling in here I was introduced to an amazing local Dominatrix, Lady X of House of Femdom. House of Femdom, among many other things, hosts welcoming parties for local and visiting Dommes. Lady X, her partner Mistress Katie, and their well-trained house subs put together a top-notch evening of pampering, and playing to introduce local subs to new-to-the-area dominants.  Mistress X has a wicked imagination, and she devised so many naughty games for the subbies to compete for our attentions. The submissive guests reflected a range of experience levels. I got to play with amusing betas that yelped when they saw a clamp and experienced masochists that took my lashings and thanked me as welts formed on their flesh. My party was so special; another moment when I was able to pause and reflect on everything I love about being a professional dominant. This is the community I am a part of, and these are the people I am blessed to spend my time with.

Overlapping the weekend of my party, our Panda had to go home. I wish I was able to carve some play time or bring her to an event during her stay. For a self-proclaimed brat, she is such a solid and helpful friend. You were missed so much Panda, thank you again and again for all you did.
Dahlia and I were then able to focus on some behind the scenes stuff.  How many times have I said that she is amazing? I haven't said it half as often as I have thought it. She is amazing. She tended to everything I value with the same level of thoughtfulness and devotion that I vanilla at. When I returned, my home was spotless and fresh flowers were in every room. She managed my business so that my trip could be truly down time. And she did this while bouncing that booty to Cardi B and singing along, bitches is mad, bitches is trash err, Oscar the Grouch, Seeing me win, they gotta hurt, ooh ouch. Said when the see me, what they gon do? Bitch, not from the couch. She's everything. After unpacking, and a moment to rest my feet. They are still humming, thank you sir. What? Oops, sidetracked again. After a moment to decompress, there were schedules to coordinate. Events and launch dates were penciled on calendars. Ideas for content were considered, and pinned.

Dahlia and my top are my point and counterpoint in all things. Neither are my echo chamber, I know how good my coffee is Jules, I buy the motherfucking coffee. I have no need of an echo chamber. It is rare, but what I have a need for is someone to say, you've put a lot of energy into this and it isn't proving worth your time. Or more often, to say that idea last week, that was brilliant, why isn't it in motion yet. There's a thing I have debated with myself far too long, when I said it out loud, my muse and my top agreed with me. The work-cations to Massachusetts are not the best investment of my time. I will not be returning to Massachusetts this summer. When I do return, whenever that may be, I will be wearing my tourist shirt. It will not be announced publicly and I will no longer try to juggle downtime and work time. If you are devoted to me, if you wish to serve me, you will do so on my schedule here in Paradise.
Omi, how long has this become? A quick edit suggests there isn't much I want to cut. Listen if George RRRRRR Martinson can use every word in the English language 10,000 times to tell a story of how everything burns, (could have been summed up with, totes wicked hot) I can use this many to share the best month ever. I'm not quite done, but I am quite tired. I know, you're already waiting on a part two of the post on Long Distance Dynamics. Mistress needs a nap. You will also wait to hear about my surprise visitor, Mistress Dahlia's birthday bash and maybe, if you beg & I am feeling especially exhibition-y, a little taste of how tops play when they get actual downtime. You're welcome. 

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Tuesday Q&A: Watch Me

Just a little off but not behind schedule this week. I can't be behind, Thursday's post already exists. I must be off though, here it is Tuesday and I am sitting at the keys. This will post today. I think I have shared my approach before, I prefer writing the week's posts on Sundays and scheduling them to post on the appropriate days. It gives me a chance to let my thoughts sit for a minute, then check for typos and edit before it goes live. There is a perk to same day posts though, they're just completely off the cuff so I am far less inclined to self-censor. I know you're laughing, you're saying she doesn't self-censor. I do, trust me, things infinitely more outrageous than what makes it to print float through my thoughts constantly. 

I think this post will lend itself really well to off the cuff, uncensored me. I think before I am done I am going to add an outrageously inappropriate for public photo to it, hit save and live with the consequences. It's Tuesday, the most muggle day of the week. Let's get in trouble. 

The idea for the post has been floating around for a week or two. There's a rough outline in my rough outline notebook. I have explained before how Q&A Tuesdays work. I have explained my ocd before, Tuesdays are for Q&As. I forgot to ask allan for questions again. I forgot to tell him to make it a standing order, questions every week allan by Friday. There check that off the To Do List. So I asked allan for questions on Saturday I think. He followed directions, he typically does. I didn't give him a theme, just send anything. He sent 3 great questions, that completely do not fit this week's agenda. But my ocd says that Tuesdays are for questions, preferably questions asked by slave allan. Although for the record if my followers wished to ask me a question, I'd be happy to add them to a Tuesday post. I'm going to answer a question allan asked in an email that he intended to be answered for him. 

The question was; is it appropriate for me to watch your broadcasts on Chaturbate I am your slave, should I see you this way? Let's expand this to fit here. 

Mistress Cassidy, I sessioned with you in 20**, I moved away, should I watch you?

Mistress I haven't seen you irl yet, but I intend to, should I watch you?

Cassidy we use to work parties together, should I watch you? 

Cassidy we go to the same parties, should I watch you?

Denise, we went to high school together, should I watch you? 

Denise- Cassidy, which do you prefer now? I am your BFF, should I watch you?

Well, are you my friend? Do you want to be? Are you cool? Is this one of my current projects? What do the cool people do? They support their friends projects. I feel like I have said this once or twice.  If you are awake at midnight I would love for you to come hang out with me while I broadcast. 

Why should you? Well aren't I the most charming person you know? Don't you want to spend time with me? More seriously, I am trying to build a following. The hours I am available to broadcast are not the busiest hours on the site. The number of people hanging out in a room is one of the factors that determines where one's room is shown on the list of broadcasters to choose from.  My public broadcasts are very conservative compared to other broadcasters. Viewers on Chaturbate can view and message broadcasters for free with or without signing up as a member. I save the most risque parts of my broadcasts for private shows when viewers pay for them.  One of things that keeps a viewer in your room, improving the probability that they will choose to engage in a private show, is how well the broadcaster is engaging with her followers. If my room is packed with my friends, it will be engaging. 

 

What will you see if you come hang out? You will see me start off the night looking pretty, I hope, with fresh make-up and my hair done. You'll see me being flirty. Which I think mostly looks silly. You'll probably see me roll my eyes at some of the screen names and pick up lines the muggles use. You'll hear me say no, a lot. You may hear me negotiate a private session, it may include some adult language but that is more commonly done in private messages. You may hear me retell stories you have heard before, and I bet a bunch that you have not. You may hear me tell a story about you, I promise I will protect your privacy and I assure you I only share stories that are happy memories. You will probably be flattered. You may see flashes of nudity.  You'll hear my favorite songs. You may see me quite enjoy myself, but not quite thoroughly enjoy myself. I save that for private sessions. I will duck out occasionally for private sessions as they happen. If you're so inclined, there's an option to spy on private sessions for a fee. For what it is worth, people spying on private shows are anonymous. Unless I happen to notice that the tip counter is moving at a rate reflecting that there additional viewers, I will not even know that someone is watching, I definitely won't know that it is you watching. Know how much time I spend worried about who spied on my shows? Exactly zero seconds. Watch me, I like an audience. I do not engage in anything, anywhere, that I wouldn't smile to know that every adult on the planet signed in to see and enjoyed. And when I come back from a private or at the end of the night, you may see me look tired, but quite satisfied. 

Voyeuristic Thursday: slave allan's reward

You may, as a reward, view up to an hour of adult material of your choosing in the 24 hours following this going live. Note, if you don't see this until it has been live over 24 hours, sorry for your loss the reward will have expired. Also note, what you view will be part of your assignment for next Thursday. So choose a thing you are comfortable disclosing publicly.

Thank you, Mistress, for your reward. I was lucky enough to have read the post before the reward had expired. Being faced with the hard truth that in the near future, when I am once again locked into a contract as Mistress's collared slave. These simple interests are going to be off limits to me. So what do I watch with only one hour that Mistress has granted me? To use a metaphor, I feel as though the virtual collar is on me now. It just doesn't have the virtual lock snapped into place yet. That will come in due time.

Having been given permission to search for adult material. I spent 20 minutes searching Google compiling a library of pictures that I can use in future post for my blog and for Mistress's Q and A. I also like to post pictures on my FL profile. I guess with the ban on adult material, I will have to use something else for pictures once I use up the library. OMG. Mistress it just dawned on me. Will I still be allowed to look into my saved file of images for my blog once I am under contract? I do not have an interest in seeing couples having sex. I prefer teasing pictures. The white feather on one's side or the photo of an ice cube on a defenseless sub's nipple.

Light predicament bondage catches my eye too. The ones where as long as the sub stays on his/her tiptoes. They prevent the endless edging from a vibrator. Or being in the predicament of being tied to a wooden horse. I find myself easily imagining myself as the slave in those pictures. But mostly I enjoy both photos with captions. Or as they are called today, memes. I am particularly fond of femdom, CFNM, and erotic hypnosis caption. I also admire the simple hand-drawn photos. I am astounded how an artist using lines and shading can make a scene jump off the page. Once fully collared these memes will probably be the first violation I will have to confess to. For example, recently I have been searching for memes to send Mistress to help aid her with quitting smoking. But I found myself typing in BDSM Minions. That kind absent mindlessness could find me once again being dressed down on a future Thursday post. Or something worse. So I save several in those first 20 minutes for future use if I am allowed too.

Rationing my remaining time, I decide to listen to one last hypnosis file. I had to forego my favorite file that technically is a JOI theme script. But with my particular male member refusing to make an appearance. I substituted my family jewels to tormenting my nipples. Sadly this file was too long to listen to with my remaining time. So I listened to a 22-minute piece about nipples. In the introduction part the session, the hypnotist claims that with continuous listening my nipples will become the center of my sexual being. It is suggested that I will crave nipple play over any other stimulation. A wonderful thought for someone with E.D. I enjoy listing to the sultry sounding voice and find the piece quite relaxing. As to the claim of making my nipple replace my penis as the central sexual focus on my body is still up for debate.

With only 18 minutes remaining I have two things I want to do. First I want to write a new post on nipple play. Sadly I am having a problem to come up with a theme. Hoping for inspiration I did a Google search. I found one description that sounded promising. It was a 54-minute video clip. Of course, knowing I couldn't watch the full thing so I started leapfrogging through it. Unfortunately, I didn't find any new inspiration for my blog, But the scenes that I did watch were interesting. The clip was not what I call the fluffy production type. This one was rawer. For all, I know it could be a couple who uploaded one of their scenes online. Trying to keep to my interest it was a femdom, CFNM video. In the video I was introduced to a new nipple device that I did not know of. The Mistress called it a nipple stretcher. He being gaged had little to say. These things are about 8 inches long with a metal arch. Through the arch is a threaded rod which is attached to a clover clamp. The slave in the video wore them by have the clamps attached to his nipples, which are stretched by the threaded rod, pulling the device tighter to his chest. Periodically through the video, the Mistress would twist the threaded rod a couple of revolutions pulling the slave's nipples that much more. Oh what a lucky slave.

With only seven minutes remaining, I gave up the video to read a short story I found the internet. This one is a short tale about a newlywed lady who thought she had received a gift from her husband that was away on a business trip. Upon opening the box she discovers a chastity belt. Which is of course equipped with the expected butt plug and vibrator attachments. There is a love note attached saying that if you love me you will wear this for me until I return. And to contact him once she put it on. Excitedly the wife puts the device on and locks it. She then quickly calls and tells her husband that she put it on. But instead of a fun conversation with her lover. She is greeted with an evil laugh from the man that she married. He goes on to tell her that the relationship and marriage were all staged and that she had been selected to becomes a sex slave to this multinational group. She still thinks that he's playing a game until he asked if she read the instructions. She reads a welcoming message to her new life as a slave, followed by a lengthy contract which states that by locking the device she has agreed with the terms of the contract. The story then goes on to tell about her training by what turns out to be a remote control belt at the command of some mystery woman. During the training stage of the story, the slave is taught obedience by receiving multiple hours of edging or forced orgasms by the chastity belt for not complying. The rest of the story is about the different people she's required to submit to.

So that is how I spent the hour that Mistress Cassidy rewarded me with. I am still stuck for an idea to use in a nipple tormenting post for my blog. I am open to suggestions.

Thank you once again, Mistress, for allowing me to be part of your Thursday blog.

Voyeuristic Thursday- slave allan's negotiations

It has always been my intention for this blog to find a rhythm. Of all the things I do as a domme, keeping this blog is among my very most favorite things. Yet like most of my favorite things, it kept finding itself as the last item on my To Do List. I fully understand the juxtaposition that is a top and bottom at play. My subs are in charge, I am responsible. My top creates the perfect illusion that I answer to him so I might justify having, and making time for what I want. But when I am alone, who am I? When who I am is not defined by my relationship to another, who am I? I am in charge and I am responsible. If this is among my favorite things, I will not deny myself the pleasure it brings me. So let's establish the rhythm and keep the beat. 

The following is an excerpt, shared with permission, of slave allan's negotiations to a new offer of collaring. slave allan served me well for several months as my long distance, collared submissive. Due to many factors both personal and dynamic in nature he asked to be released in March. Since March he has continued to be a good friend, and a helpful service sub. 

Hello once again Mistress
This part of my response is typed in a fashion that if you want to release
it on your blog, you have my consent. I have to admit a quiver ran down my
spine, and I felt like a silly schoolboy, after reading that you were
smiling and giggling as you were typing. Then let's face it my overactive
imagination kicks in. I envision you sitting comfortably at your keyboard
devising plans for scenes, or tasks and mountains of misery with maple
syrup for your collared slave. I also figured that if I returned to the
collar that you would conceive some consequence for me for asking to leave
in the first place. A consequence so amusing for you that it causes you to
giggle.
<There will not be a consequence for asking to be released. I am aware that you experienced tremendous loss by asking to be released. >
I know I am being silly, it's just that my mind keeps conjuring things
up. You also asked the holy grail of question, Do I want to wear your
collar again? To once again be your slave submitting to your training.
Serving for your pleasure. Following the rules set forth in my contract.
Giving up certain privileges like being able to read or view whatever adult
material I please. To again give up my ability to release whenever I wish,
having to return to asking or begging for permission for my release.
Knowing that displeasing behaviors and actions could find me facing a very
mentally or painfully punishment at your hand. To return to a
life of complete obedience. To once again be called the collared slave of
Mistress  Cassidy. To this, my reply would be a formal yes Mistress. <edited for excessive words> Primarily this message was to answer the
wearing of your collar question. There is another topic I need to know
before I would sign a contract. You mentioned in your post (I am going to
need you to work on some things though).<another edit> I plead that you will inform me what are these
things you say I have to work on? <and yet another> You use too many words slave. 

<edit> As you said we will leave the detail
for a private conversation. So I will present some things here for your
consideration and ultimately your decision and final say on the idea.
Correct me if I am wrong.<I do not need to be told when to correct a slave> A slave is to some extent kept to a
strict sort of structure.<if that is what his/her top wishes> Now I know that you are busy and daily contact
with you is next to impossible. But is it possible to have 1 or 2 schedule
messages a week? <here we are this was the spot I was happy with & wanted to highlight, slave allan articulated what his needs/hopes are, I can now make a decision if I can meet them and decline or counter if I wish>The message could be as simple as (Are you behaving
slave?) Opening my inbox and seeing your name in bold print goes a long
way.<I understand this> I don't have to read the message, <if I take the time to message you, you need to read it as quickly as reasonably possible> just the bold print make me feel
secure and safe. Is that corny? <No allan, it's a normal way for a bottom to feel> There is a place where I need disciplinary
help. There is no denying we are friends and at times I managed to get my
leash long than I deserve. So where am I heading with this? Strict
deadlines. In our LDR physical bondage is for the most part not happening.
So might mental restraint such deadlines replace the physical ones. I
figure a deadline can restrain my mind almost as tight as cuffs on my
wrist. Plus it is a reminder to me that no matter how friendly we are. You
will always be my superior and owner, and no matter how friendly we are,
miss a deadline and my next message from you could be less enjoyable.
This next idea came to me as I am writing this and it leans to me being
control. You have several dominant friends that you trust a lot listed on
your profile. If I had to be in their friends' list, I would then be on
their radar, and if I venture out of my boundaries on Fetlife, one of them
might notice and tell you. <I appreciate the fantasy you are entertaining here allan, but not only no but hell no. It is pretty presumptuous to think my friends would want to keep an eye on you, my friends are as busy as I am & have no contractual or friendship based responsibility to you>  Knowing that someone might be watching for you
will keep me on my toes. It just an idea. I also have another idea to
suggest, but it could be an entire post itself. So it can wait for now.
<edit>
Since at the moment I am still a free agent I am able to speak with
slightly more freedom. I hope it is okay that I ask this question. <you may be a free agent, you are still a bottom and not my equal. If you find yourself pondering is it OK to ask this question, you should think on it until you are sure of the answer. You may ask whatever you wish, but if you insult me or annoy me I will dismiss you and be done, do you understand?>  Does
Mistress want me wearing her collar? An LDR takes two participants, and as
much as I can say yes to wanting the collar, there is an equal if not more
important opinion that matters. Yours. For me it is simple, I just have to
follow and obey. Which is easier than leading. <you narrowly wiggled through so boundary testing here. I am going to allow it this time because I am feeling oh so generous. And because I am feeling oh so generous I am going to indulge your need for public humiliation. I suspect it will not be such a sexy feeling when I am finished. Do not suggest that you, a player of like a year or two can tell me about what makes a good dynamic or an LDR. Do not ask me to restate a thing I have already stated- ie, I asked you if you wanted my collar back, I acknowledged your value to me and agreed to a task based tribute. Essentially moving you out of client realm and into collared, personal submissive realm. I do not recall hearing a thank you for my offer by the way.  Do you want me to reconsider? What does slave allan need to work on if we are going to have a new LDR collared commitment? Well he does always talk about the desire for realness while simultaneously requesting things like can I arrange for beautiful dominant women to cyber stalk him. You are being offered real, you will be shelving your fantasy Rolodex and serving me- full stop. I will give you as much or as little time as I wish, for any reason or no reason at all. It's noteworthy that you have failed to ask what tasks you might be expected to complete for me. It is likely that how much time I have for you will  be in some relation to how much of my time you are able to free up for me by completing what I ask of you. But this is not quid pro quo. This is you wish to be a slave, and you accept your station. Are we clear slave?> 

I better conclude here, so I can edit this and get it out to you before
time runs out. Whoa. One last thing, a task you assigned at the end of your
last post. Mistress as a sub I want to thank you for pointing out my errors
in my letter and for being merciful and not punishing me for them. I am
also starting to form a phobia to maple syrup :)
Bye

Mistress Cassidy's New Contract

Until recently I wasn't especially attracted to formal contracts. Until I wish to offer a sub a collar there is no reason whatsoever to create one for professional sessions. And with subs that transition from clients to collared by the time I am offering them my collar we have already established the ground rules that guide our dynamic. I may jot them down or truthfully I have on a few occasions tasked my sub with writing what they understood the expectations to be and I simply correct any mistakes and sign off on what they have presented me. I do love to write, but overly formal, wordy, micro-managing is just not a hot button for me. I had never been terribly impressed with what I saw in other's contracts either, slave will suck my dick on demand. Well I lack the appendage and I am not a big fan of demands in either direction. I much prefer my personal subbies long for me, and beg for me. Collared subbies that came via the professional route are never, ever going to be allowed to suck my anything and they are well aware of that limit before accepting my collar. I came across a contract that I really appreciated though. I no longer recall where, so unfortunately I can not credit the creator. Other than the first line of the bottoms guidelines, this is not a copy of that contract. What I liked was that the requirements for the sub focused on the well-being of the sub, not how the sub was expected to serve. The responsibilities of the top were more clearly defined in my opinion than those for the bottom. I want a sub who seeks my collar to know exactly how I conduct myself. I want them to know my style, my preferences and to recognize that what I give them is a significant piece of my life and my energy. If this is not what they seek, if they simply want to be told that they will perform on demand, I am not the right dominant for them. 

So this is the blue-print for my new contract. It will be augmented to reflect the specifics of the bottom it is edited for, but I had two bottoms I in mind when I wrote it. With my upcoming move, my intention to essentially live in two states that are separated by 600 miles, I wish to find the best among the submissives that currently serve me informally and to transition them into collared positions. For my plans to go smoothly I will require the devotion and dedication that comes from a committed sub. I will print no more than 9 copies in the next year, and  I may print less. But I suspect 3 subs in Massachusetts, 3 subs in Virginia and 3 virtual subbies is what I will require. I will continue to see newbies, and uncollared subs, but my focus will be on and my attention will be given to those who serve me formally.   

Mistress Cassidy V. Cream recognizes that your skills, attitude and general demeanor is pleasing to her and does wish to extend a formal offer of my collar to you. I wish for you to be my _________, and I will refer to you as__________at community events and in private. As my _________ you will be expected to follow the following rules at all times, to the best of your ability. You will without hesitation disclose any infractions immediately. 

1. Each morning you will state a thing you like about yourself. It should be an original thought each day. At any time I may ask you what your statement was that day, you should be prepared to disclose it.
2. You will check-in once per week via_____ on _____day. At which time you will update me on any projects we are working on, your schedule for the following week and you will share one statement that you used the previous week. 
3. You will disclose to me your fantasies, your hopes, and your goals. Both as they are currently, and ongoing as they change. 
4. You will refrain from self-harm, and negative internal chatter. If this proves to be difficult for you, you will bring it to my attention so we may develop a strategy to address it.  
5. You will disclose your fears, concerns, and limitations. Including but not limited to hard limits, phobias, medical conditions and the state of your emotional well-being. Again this will be both as the are currently and as needed should they change. 
6. You will protect yourself in and out of scenes. You will, to the best of your ability, avoid toxic people, and unsafe situations. 
7. You will use your safe word of ______ in scenes as needed, without fear of repercussion, at any time for any reason. You are trusted and encouraged to know your limits, to know when you are ready to push on them and when to hold firmly to them.  
8. You are my property and I expect you to maintain yourself in a manner that reflects the value I recognize in you. 
9. When I am in _______ you will be available to me ___________. I will use ______ to contact you. You are expected to acknowledge my messages within _______., to carry out any task that I may ask of you or to ask for additional time if needed. 
10. When I am away, in my absence you will be expected to continue with all rules listed, to complete any on-going projects or tasks. And to communicate with me via _______, _________.
11. In an emergency in my absence you are to contact ________ via__________ and to heed her advice as if it were mine. 
12.  At scene events and in private you are to refer to me as _________, In vanilla public settings and around muggles, you may simply call me Cassidy. Your overall demeanor at these times should reflect your respect and affection for me, but I do not expect you to out yourself. 
13. If ever you do not understand the instructions I have given you, you may respectfully ask for "clarity" and expect that I will clarify my instructions without frustration.

As your ___________ you are my property and you will be treated with the utmost respect and care. I place the highest value on my belongings. The following are my promises and responsibilities to you. 

1. I will guide you through your experiences in submission with love and affection. 
2. I will not withhold affection or attention as a form of punishment.
3. I will never strike you or otherwise cause you pain out of anger or frustration. I do not hurt people out of malice, I hurt people because I enjoy it. 
4. I will be available to you for after care in whatever form best matches your needs immediately after all scenes and as needed in the days that follow. 
5. I will include you in community events that I deem appropriate for you. I will give you clear expectations for any event we attend.
6. I will reply to your messages within 24 hours, in the event of an emergency and an emergency only you may contact me via _________. An emergency is to be understood to mean that you are in immediate risk of harm or have sustained an injury of significance. 
7. Should I come to be disappointed in your behavior it will be addressed quickly, kindly, using precise language, examples of the behavior and with clear instructions with how I expect it to be remedied. I do not expect my submissives to be mind readers and I would never intentionally set you up to fail.
8.  When I feel our dynamic has reached it's natural end or should you seek to be released from my ownership, I will release you with kindness, grace and gratitude. I will maintain your privacy and my respect for you until the end of time. 

A Private Conversation Made Public, with Consent of course

The alternative title for this post was going to be "Our Silly Slave allan" or something of that nature. Below is the lovely email I received a couple days ago. Of course my response comes first, but perhaps it will make more sense to read it out of order. Slave allan's email is italicized, mine is not. 

allan, do you wish to wear my collar again?

I am going to need you to work on some things though. I wish there was a font that actively conveyed that I am smiling and giggling while tapping the keys. No allan, I do not wish for you to do a thing that you're already half trained at that would make my life easier. No slave, it would not be to my benefit to have a servant I already trust doing a job that entails disclosing my passwords. No allan, after running ads for I don't know 5 years now and not finding a skilled assistant that I can afford I would not value trading my time directly for said service. If you hit the lotto don't share it with me, and don't offer me your umbrella in the rain. <end eye rolling here> 

We can hammer out the details of your new contract privately. Send me your last one, if there was anything we had pinned to come back to or anything that was challenging or problematic for you please make a note of it in an email. I expect to have it before the weekend is over, and you can expect to wait about a week for your new one. Next week is pretty full for me. 

By the way slave, I proofed and edited your message. Whether a message is intended to be public or private, please do a better job with the spellcheck. Maple syrup next time, you can thank me for my mercy in your next post. 


I find myself compelled to write you. Originally I
was just going to mark a quick thank you for mentioning my name in your
post. But as my mind started forming up the few sentences, more and
more came to mind, and I find myself unable to rest. I had thought to
post this in the comment box, but I then did something I think very unslave
like. I used the head on my shoulders to do the thinking, instead of
the one in my pants. I figured you would like to proof read it first
then decide if you would want it on your blog. First Ma'am thank you
for the visual you provide of your attire as you wrote your blog. I
had a brief mental picture that would of had you punishing me a few
months ago. You know one of those thoughts a sub should never have of
their owner. But your're a beautiful woman and I had a typical male
reaction. You mentioned your smoking in the post. I had not mentioned
it earlier since I did not know how it was going, and I did not want
to depress you if it was not going your way. But to get to the meat of
this post. I was flabbergasted when you said that I may be a natural
submissive. That was the single most flattering, nicest compliment
that anyone has ever given me. Yes nice things were said to me about
stuff I built. But after working my butt off trying to fit into the
BDSM community, and to have an accomplished dominant woman indicate
that I might be a natural submissive. Well my gosh I feel like I won a
gold medal, or would that be cuffs for our community :) This last
spring was awful for me, and from what I have put together from your
writing, it was none to pleasant of a spring for you to. But the worst
thing to happen was losing your collar. At the time my head was not in
the right place. For a while it felt like my world was collapsing once
again, and I felt jaded that I was not getting as many messages from
you. It never dawned on me at that time of self pity that you could be
having your own hardships and not available to return messages. For
that I am going to break Leroy Jeffrow Gibbs rule number one (nerver
say your sorry. It show's weakness). Then so be it I am weak. I am so
very sorry Mistress Cassidy. The truth be told I miss my collar. I
miss calling myself the collared slave of Mistress Cassidy, I miss
doing your tasks, and I miss be punished by you when I deserve it. I
miss being a slave. But real life prevents me from returning there.
One of my stresser in the spring was realizing that my disability
pension was not able to provide for everything and I was having
difficulty maintaining the monthly tribute. The exchange rate didn't
help things either. I finally knew that I was unable to maintain being
your slave. But I never stop following you though. I was actually very
interested in one of your sub's guest post about an edging task. Sadly
they ended. But when you put out the request for people to send in
guest post I jumped at it. In an indirect way I found a little way
that I could serve you. My reward was when you mention my name in a
post or left a comment. I then found myself checking the comments on
your blog often when you posted the spring poem. In your openning you
advised reader to tell you of typos so you can torment slave allan
properly. I was logging in often hoping to see a comment pointing
out an error just to find out how you were going to torment me.
Desperate right? I had seen in your Fetlife group saying that you were
willing to barter services for some that you needed. I read over the
list but sadly I didn't fit the bill. then I thought maybe I could
train online somewhere to be a virtual assistant or a media manager.
Then I could trade services with you. I shot that down for two reasons
one you will find someone long before I am trained, and two bartering
doesn't pay the bills. You're a pro, this is your business, you need
customers/clients. Despite all of it I will continue to aide you where
I can like a good submissive. Be it an other Q and A or Guest Post.
And once again my reward is the mention of my name in some part of
that post. Am I a natural submissive? I can't answer that. You see
identifying myself as a slave the title natural submissive would be
something bestowed upon me by a dominant person. To just assume that
title is something I as a sub to quote your expression "I do not have
the authority to do." I was raised and lived my adult life being
humble. Is that a natural submissive? I will leave that up to your
mute fans to decide. I started this as a comment for your last
blog.  Gosh, I don' t know if it will fit in the comment section. In
the end that choice is yours Mistress, to use this as a comment, a
guest post or just an Email between friends. It is out of my hands
now.

Your faithful friend
slave allan