Voyeuristic Thursday: slave allan's August Goals

The following is slave allan's assignment for the week. I wish for voyeuristic Thursday to be a thing, and this is my universe so now it is. So add read Mistress Cassidy's blog to your Thursday To Do List. allan's words will be in black, mine will be italicized and in purple, defiant purple. That is an insider joke between my sort of or once was metamour, Miss Sunshyne and I. Perhaps if you beg I might be inclined to share that story another day. 

For the first time in a long time I am sitting at my keyboard typing out
sentences for a topic that I didn't come up with. This time I have a direct
order form Mistress Cassidy, and if I don't want to end up on KP duty. I
better do it. But before I get started. There is something I would like to
say formally.

*Yes!*  Mistress Cassidy. I would like to be your collared slave.

Okay that is one item off the list. You see Mistress has task me with
providing my personal and BDSM goal for the next month. My proclamation was
my foremost goal for both personal and BDSM.

Alright lets start with personal stuff as the appetiser. And keep the BDSM
for the main course, And since losing some weight is always part of my
personal goal. I will have to pass on dessert :)

<Mistress Cassidy opted to edit for privacy>
<Note to slave allan: I have talked to you about that before, I will remind you of where the boundary is on that subject> 

I am blessed to be living halfway between two of Canada's bigger
cities. Both the country's second biggest city Montreal, and the nations
capital, Ottawa, is an hour drive from us. I want to take the family to the
top of Mount Royal in Montreal. Especially at night. The lights of the
city are breath
taking. Staying with Montreal, all hands would enjoy spending time at
the historic Old Port of Montreal. While at the Port I would like to
take everyone
on a Dinner Cruise. That one is a big personal goal.

Now on another day I would like to
pile everyone into the van and visit Ottawa. We would visit the
parliament buildings. While we're on parliament hill we will go up to
the top of The Peace Tower, and if we are lucky, we might even witness
The Changing of the Guard ceremony. I personally want to visit the
newly renovated Museum of Science and Technology. And it wouldn't be a
family trip to Ottawa if we didn't stop at the airport to watch the planes
takeoff and land.

The other thing I want to do is expand on my knowledge of online
commerce. There is money to be made online. <edit>. I didn't do much in the month of
July. This month I want to make time to launch a few ideas that I saw
on YouTube. I have found 2 individual on YouTube that I find genuine and honest.
They both release videos about different sites that they have tried
and made money from. Let me point out these are not pie in sky
opportunities. These are small task jobs that pay you for your work.
For me the amount I earn is based on my efforts, and I want to apply
myself more. So over the next month I want to choose two sites. Learn
how to use them, and see if I can generate some revenue. I also want
to write more content for my BDSM blog and start a vanilla blog about
my journey into the online market. I guess for the next month that's it for
my personal goals.

BDSM goals for the month. I mentioned the most important one at the
beginning of this post. I also want to apply myself more for when
Mistress Cassidy ask me to do some training. There is also the new
contract to take in to account. I need to be ready both mental and
physically whenever Mistress Cassidy present me with it. I want to
find the necklace that represent my collar from my last contract. I
might be required to have it again. Working at improving my
schedule is important. So I can provide Mistress Cassidy time to do
my task-based tribute. And silly me. I can't remember where I hid
those lacey panties.

At one time Mistress and I talked about recording a hypnosis session.
I would like to find out if Mistress still wants to do the recording.
I am not getting myself excited about a hypnosis session. It is summer
time and Mistress is very busy. <edit> A. So after establishing if
Mistress is even still interested. We can figure out when to do a
session. I also need to retrain my mind this next month, to the fact that
I have agreed to become someone's slave. I have to also remember that Mistress
Cassidy will once again be my owner, and I have to obey her. Also this month I
have to practice what I promised in a previous post. I need to stop
fantasizing about
what I believe a collared slave is.

So a lot of this month's goals  are learning how to think like a
collared slave. This is an important goal to remember. I am Mistress's
slave, and my job is to help her,
and to see that she is happy with my efforts. Also before the month
is up. I hope to have replace my thinking, that a punishment is fun. A
punishment comes from making Mistress upset. Which goes against my primary
objective of keeping Mistress happy. I want, to the best of my
abilities to stay away from being punished. I also think this goal is
important. Too enjoy this experience.
<I'd like to state here that this is a thing that is different in an online dynamic than one in real time with me. I believe I have said it here before, I say it in real life often. I do not hurt people out of anger or frustration, I hurt people because I enjoy it. Innocent, non-pathological sadism; armchair self-diagnosis. An online dynamic is different. I have changed my approach to online dynamics, in truth until about 2 years ago I did not engage in virtual domination. One might mistakenly think it is easier than real time play. There's no set up or clean up, and I do appreciate that. Aside from that though, it really is not easier and in some ways it is far more challenging. I can swing a flogger for hours, body after body and dance when I am finished. It is typically 2 days before the adrenaline flood wears off and I need to rest. An online dynamic requires creativity, requires a different type of thought process and presentation to keep both the engagement of my sub and my own. So yes, in virtual play a sub will be punished for disobeying or disappointing me. If I can not have the reward of gifting my sub with a physical experience that I enjoy, then except few if any disappointments and I will take what pleasure I can find via a virtual punishment when there is a need for one.> 
So these are the goals I have to work and improve on over the next
month. Lastly this month I want to plant the seeds to establishing my
true BDSM identity.

Bye

A little wordy slave, but as you didn't have a word limit it is acceptable. Over all a good job allan. By the time this actually publishes I believe you will be locked back into a contract and as you know you will no longer be able to peruse erotica or smut. You may, as a reward, view up to an hour of adult material of your choosing in the 24 hours following this going live. Note, if you don't see this until it has been live over 24 hours, sorry for your loss the reward will have expired. Also note, what you view will be part of your assignment for next Thursday. So choose a thing you are comfortable disclosing publicly. 

Mistress Cassidy's New Contract

Until recently I wasn't especially attracted to formal contracts. Until I wish to offer a sub a collar there is no reason whatsoever to create one for professional sessions. And with subs that transition from clients to collared by the time I am offering them my collar we have already established the ground rules that guide our dynamic. I may jot them down or truthfully I have on a few occasions tasked my sub with writing what they understood the expectations to be and I simply correct any mistakes and sign off on what they have presented me. I do love to write, but overly formal, wordy, micro-managing is just not a hot button for me. I had never been terribly impressed with what I saw in other's contracts either, slave will suck my dick on demand. Well I lack the appendage and I am not a big fan of demands in either direction. I much prefer my personal subbies long for me, and beg for me. Collared subbies that came via the professional route are never, ever going to be allowed to suck my anything and they are well aware of that limit before accepting my collar. I came across a contract that I really appreciated though. I no longer recall where, so unfortunately I can not credit the creator. Other than the first line of the bottoms guidelines, this is not a copy of that contract. What I liked was that the requirements for the sub focused on the well-being of the sub, not how the sub was expected to serve. The responsibilities of the top were more clearly defined in my opinion than those for the bottom. I want a sub who seeks my collar to know exactly how I conduct myself. I want them to know my style, my preferences and to recognize that what I give them is a significant piece of my life and my energy. If this is not what they seek, if they simply want to be told that they will perform on demand, I am not the right dominant for them. 

So this is the blue-print for my new contract. It will be augmented to reflect the specifics of the bottom it is edited for, but I had two bottoms I in mind when I wrote it. With my upcoming move, my intention to essentially live in two states that are separated by 600 miles, I wish to find the best among the submissives that currently serve me informally and to transition them into collared positions. For my plans to go smoothly I will require the devotion and dedication that comes from a committed sub. I will print no more than 9 copies in the next year, and  I may print less. But I suspect 3 subs in Massachusetts, 3 subs in Virginia and 3 virtual subbies is what I will require. I will continue to see newbies, and uncollared subs, but my focus will be on and my attention will be given to those who serve me formally.   

Mistress Cassidy V. Cream recognizes that your skills, attitude and general demeanor is pleasing to her and does wish to extend a formal offer of my collar to you. I wish for you to be my _________, and I will refer to you as__________at community events and in private. As my _________ you will be expected to follow the following rules at all times, to the best of your ability. You will without hesitation disclose any infractions immediately. 

1. Each morning you will state a thing you like about yourself. It should be an original thought each day. At any time I may ask you what your statement was that day, you should be prepared to disclose it.
2. You will check-in once per week via_____ on _____day. At which time you will update me on any projects we are working on, your schedule for the following week and you will share one statement that you used the previous week. 
3. You will disclose to me your fantasies, your hopes, and your goals. Both as they are currently, and ongoing as they change. 
4. You will refrain from self-harm, and negative internal chatter. If this proves to be difficult for you, you will bring it to my attention so we may develop a strategy to address it.  
5. You will disclose your fears, concerns, and limitations. Including but not limited to hard limits, phobias, medical conditions and the state of your emotional well-being. Again this will be both as the are currently and as needed should they change. 
6. You will protect yourself in and out of scenes. You will, to the best of your ability, avoid toxic people, and unsafe situations. 
7. You will use your safe word of ______ in scenes as needed, without fear of repercussion, at any time for any reason. You are trusted and encouraged to know your limits, to know when you are ready to push on them and when to hold firmly to them.  
8. You are my property and I expect you to maintain yourself in a manner that reflects the value I recognize in you. 
9. When I am in _______ you will be available to me ___________. I will use ______ to contact you. You are expected to acknowledge my messages within _______., to carry out any task that I may ask of you or to ask for additional time if needed. 
10. When I am away, in my absence you will be expected to continue with all rules listed, to complete any on-going projects or tasks. And to communicate with me via _______, _________.
11. In an emergency in my absence you are to contact ________ via__________ and to heed her advice as if it were mine. 
12.  At scene events and in private you are to refer to me as _________, In vanilla public settings and around muggles, you may simply call me Cassidy. Your overall demeanor at these times should reflect your respect and affection for me, but I do not expect you to out yourself. 
13. If ever you do not understand the instructions I have given you, you may respectfully ask for "clarity" and expect that I will clarify my instructions without frustration.

As your ___________ you are my property and you will be treated with the utmost respect and care. I place the highest value on my belongings. The following are my promises and responsibilities to you. 

1. I will guide you through your experiences in submission with love and affection. 
2. I will not withhold affection or attention as a form of punishment.
3. I will never strike you or otherwise cause you pain out of anger or frustration. I do not hurt people out of malice, I hurt people because I enjoy it. 
4. I will be available to you for after care in whatever form best matches your needs immediately after all scenes and as needed in the days that follow. 
5. I will include you in community events that I deem appropriate for you. I will give you clear expectations for any event we attend.
6. I will reply to your messages within 24 hours, in the event of an emergency and an emergency only you may contact me via _________. An emergency is to be understood to mean that you are in immediate risk of harm or have sustained an injury of significance. 
7. Should I come to be disappointed in your behavior it will be addressed quickly, kindly, using precise language, examples of the behavior and with clear instructions with how I expect it to be remedied. I do not expect my submissives to be mind readers and I would never intentionally set you up to fail.
8.  When I feel our dynamic has reached it's natural end or should you seek to be released from my ownership, I will release you with kindness, grace and gratitude. I will maintain your privacy and my respect for you until the end of time.