Seven

Prince not Pitt. I mean who doesn't love Morgan Freeman, but that's not the vibe I'm aiming for here. 

Did I really not mention Turkey here at all? So Cass is currently impersonating a hermit, except for when she jets to NYC to spend time with her sugar baby*, cuz I'm currently mostly toothless and I am always vain as fuck. But ya, I went to Istanbul to go to the dentist.  

Lean into your discomfort, embrace your embarrassment, accept the invitation to grow. Lean harder, push, as long as I'm here why not try to evolve. 

All seven and we'll watch them fall, they stand in the way of love and we will smoke them all. A 20-year-old me in 1993 thought that so very deep. I brought a whole human earthside while God Created Woman from that album spun, used a port hole in my body to do it. Ya, I know, it's a trick that's been done 8 billion other times. 

It's still magic. 

I turned 51 five days ago too. I didn't do the whole repetitive countdown like I did for 50. Oh, I am still in love with aging. I was just incredibly caught up in the devasting sadness of my first birthday without a call from my Mom. A couple people I have profound love for recently joined this demographic too. The just lost our mom club, not the just turned 51 club. I'm trying to focus on my gratitude for 50 birthdays with mine, but on the day after Thanksgiving this year like my birth year, I just couldn't. 

Seven, I wrote 7 posts while 50. Now I am of course going to show my 50-year-old-self grace and kindness. See above, I had other things on my mind. 

Let's assume that 51 will be tragedy-free. Careful how you word that, the subconscious does not recognize the word not. Also note, my OCD and quirks are throwing little parties almost daily. It's cool, just clean up after yourself. Anyway, I am imagining a magical 51. It's such a powerful place, everything begins in the imagination. One of the things I'm imagining are the other 51 entries I'll write in the 52 weeks I'll spend being fifty-one. Some will probably be super cringe, you've been warned.  And some (although definitely not this one) will be super sexy, I know that's why you're here. It's cool, it is why I'm here too.  

*sugar baby, should I elaborate on that? I kind of want to, a lot. It's really scary to share so much though. Ask nicely, promise to be gentle and I'll tell you all about it. The story of the BGC will have to go on Fet though.